3:34 AM
alone* in the rain;
. i feel so wrongg. like i dun belong to 6se anymore. no matter how yeu say i still do, y'all know i dun. im not physically with yeu, laffing. some of yeuu have forgotten how i really look like. and only photos refresh your memories. y'all dunno if im angryy, or sad. i feel so pissed with myself. i dunno if y'all really miss me or y'all are juz saying so to make me happy. and i dunch feel happy. i feel utterlyy miserably like a failure. i havn't completed anything worthwhile and i feel arghh. school is starting tomorrow. screw school. i havn't even fucking got my uniform yet. please excuse my bad language. im juz so pissed. and i dunch even noe whyy. crappish hell. i feel like im in hell. i feel so fake. i feel so wrong. i feel like im not really alive. i duncch state how i really feel. i have no one here to gossip with. myy stupid sister is juz so obsessed with her stupid music. she won't really talk to me. Lord help me. i really need help. i need someone to really hold me. i need something i can talk to. other than a freakish doll. or soft toyy. but whatever. no one can help me. i juz have to learn to live life.. alone.
feeling like the most screwed bitch on the entire face of earth,
carmenn*
3:21 PM
alone* in the rain;
hello
myy mummy and daddy and sister and granny and brother are coming tomorrow. myy aunt's house is gonna be HELL crowded. oh welchs. wads there to do?
anywayss. i went to the joondalup library da dayy before yesterdayy and picked up 2 bookies. Anastasia the novel & War at Troy. im alone in the house at the moment cuz me aunt went fer a meeting and myy 2 cousins are at uni. eating corn puffs at da moment. oh welchs. i wish yeuu peeps didn't hafta go to school. den i can chat with y'all more oftenn. ohh and go take my quiz kaes? the code's under my links.
go check it out. its like superr easy. rics said so. my life is so livelyy and entertaining yeahhs? hars. as if. my lips keep crackingg. arhs.
oh welchs. dats like all.
luhve yeu lots.
carmenn*
12:55 PM
alone* in the rain;
sheesh.
yeu would like cannot guess wad happened yesterdayy. sighhs. so crappy lars. i dun even noe why i cried. sighhs.
and in fronts of me aunt & uncle & cousinn. goshh. i was like dunno lars. i juz began to cry lars. hmms. i like was looking fer something to cover my face with can? goshh.
anyways, we den went to play badminton at this court. my other cousin didn't go. so there was 4 of us. yeapss. sighhs. i wish i could play badminton with y'all agains. me and my cousin lost aganst my aunt and uncle tho. so yeahhs.
ahhs. i need a good book to snuggle into. i have reallly NOTHING to do lars. 10 more dayys to me family coming over. i can then talk to my sister and sing without feeling embarrased. ((: whee. i get embarrased easily kaes? muz like understand.
sighhs. im missing y'all lots and lots. ahhs. pfft. and rach is sucha lil' baby. she dun stand up fer her rights, she lets peeps push her over. like if rics and jeph dun like that design, then u argue and tell them at least yeu came up with a nice design and they didn't even have one.
like duh. gosh rach, you're mum's a successful lawyer. learn some debating or wtv skills. back urself up. if u think it nice, den stick with it. sheesh. ohh welchs.
sighhs. i keep sighing. listening to rich gurl at the moment. whee. luhve dat song. ((: and rics, dun bully rachell. she still a very small gurliee. hars. okayys tag the boards yeah? and when i get my number, y'all muz call once in a while. i won't post it on myy blogs tho. i dun want any prank calls. whee. not like anyone would wanna prank call me. hars. missing y'all loaddss. i wanna hug someone. oh welchs.
`still[missing]yeu // andluhvingyeu [((foralways))]
carmenn*
12:05 PM
alone* in the rain;
whee ((:
my blog is unscrewd. calls for a celebration ((:
thank kews to dwi fer helping me edits.
and thank kews to meself. fer being so smarts.
hars. i so ego
sighs. nothing much has been happening so like, no point saying anything. juz lazing around. so stupid, if only i had brought some books to read. i onlyy have archie comics which i have read over and over fer like a million times.
. i've been listening to the disc rics burn fer me like most of the time on the discman. rics will be hell happy to hear. ohh and if y'all noe some place which i can place the drawing board, please tell me. cuz like i can't seem to decide where.
the new skin so sad. black and whites. sighh. but its juz so sweet. dwi thinks it boring. sighh. oh welchs. as long as i like it ((:
i still luhhve the song onlyy one. its suchhaa nice song. i've not come tired of it yetts. whee.
sighs. there's not much me can say so. yeahhs.
`still[missing]yeu // andluhvingyeu [((foralways))]
carmenn
2:43 PM
alone* in the rain;
heyys.
this blogspot thing is so troublesome. i was doing my entry yesterday and when i finished and everything was like perfect, dis stupid thing appeared and i couldn't publish it. so annoying. pfft. anyways, highlights are coming up ((=
28th march__* went fishing with me uncle, aunt and 2 cousins. got seasick after catching 2 fishies and puked. so didn't fish no more. =T me get motion sickness like hell easy. sighs
1st april__* got me first scholarship test at St Hilda's. it was like hell cold that day lars. i could have died. =T but i survived. im a survivor. wtv. i like xiao xiao liaos. whee. the test was like set by the school, so like it was more difficult. but i dun like the school. i dun mind not getting in. the principle like hell dao one nah. she dao all the chinese. rasics freak.
2nd april__* went to St Mary's for my second scholarship test. this time the test was set by these peeps and my results will be sent to several other schools, not like St Hilda's lah. it was easier than the first so yeahh. i like St Mary's like hell better cuz the peeps are nice. not like the St Hilda's ones. they damn proud lars. like RGS. yeu noe..
like recently__* nothing larhs. i juz help out at my aunt's kumon classes every monday, wednesdays, fridays and saturdays. kinda fun lars. cuz nothing to do at the house. even if i go out, there is nothing i wanna like do. so i juz like laze around at the house.
y'all might be like wondering why i do ANOTHER blog. well cuz like rics wanted me to update y'all with like how i'm doing. so yeah. not very interesting tho =T. am missing y'all loads lars. sighh. wish y'all were here. PLEASE TRY NOT TO COPY MY SKIN yeahs? cuz like not very nice.
`am__missingyeu // and[luhving]yeu ( foralways )++
carmenn*
3:37 PM
alone* in the rain;
